it's been about a week since my last blog update. it seems like so much has happened. last thursday, the 15th, i left for a jr. high camp, warm beach. i was a counselor to seven 8th and 9th grade girls. prior to leaving, i was afraid that i wouldn't make it back. i had this irrational fear that they were going to be the death of me, but i'm glad i was wrong. the girls were wonderful - it's so strange to think that i was 13/14 once. it's funny because they're not quite children, and definitely nowhere near being adults. so they are exposed to the things in this world, and at the same time, they still have this innocence/child-like quality about them. jr. highers crack me up. :)

we all got back on sunday afternoon, which left only a few hours to prep for the ultimate farewell bash at cbc. ryan made a very funny game called "hallway of shame" an apparent spin off of "wheel of pain." too funny. [pictures will follow soon.] anyway, it was nice to get together, eat food, laugh a lot, and take pictures!

the rest of this past week has been filled with the last week of classes, running errands, being busy, and packing up and moving. it's kind of sad. last night when i went to sleep, and even when i woke up this morning, our apartment still had the furniture in the living room. but when i got back from my finals, it was like we'd been robbed. all the stuff that's been here this past year is gone. it's so strange to look at the emptiness of this place. it's even weirder to watch everybody else move out too. so i joined in the packing up fun and hauled two car loads of stuff over to kristie's place. *sigh* i'm seriously going to miss the people i've lived around for the last year. who knew that in such a short time, relative to how long everyone else has lived near each other, that so many people would have found a spot in my heart. i get the whole "saudades" thing. it's a portuguese word meaning "missing, longing, etc" it's hard to explain, but you know it when you feel it, and i'm starting to feel it.

i know that change is good. but it still makes me sad to see people go. it sort of just hit me that jermaine isn't coming back. she left for california early this morning. i'm sure she'll visit and stuff, but this move is permanent. david's permanent move will probably hit me once he's actually off to foreign soil - canada. jen and naomi are going to portland, but the chances of them coming back is pretty good, plus, it's where home is, so i'm sure i'll get to see them often enough.

basically...i'm feeling a little blue.