maybe it's the medication i'm on that's been making me feel listless and tired...or maybe it's being home. i still can't explain what phenomena causes me to revert to a complete lump every time i'm home. when i'm in seattle/school, i'm totally productive - i do laundry, clean, cook, read, do crafty things, go out to the park, target, costco, make efforts to hang out with people...etc. but for some inexplicable reason, i do none of those things when i'm here at home. i have no real desire to venture out. i'm content to sit at home and putter around. or maybe i just don't want to bother with explaining to my mom where i'm going all the time. i go to target or the bookstore for no reason and to my mom, it just sounds ridiculous. i went to the Bales last night to buy more soft foods like pudding and yogurt and took a detour to hollywood video, where they were having their 4 vhs movies for $20 sale. :) i know...fun, huh? of course...i got caught up wandering around for a super long time because i couldn't just pick any 4 movies...i wanted to pick 4 i would watch more than once. when i got home, my mom was freakin' out and going on about how she was worried...etc...

ok, let's get some facts straight:

• i live in portland - not ne, totally and completely westside
  
• my whole neighborhood and surrounding community is so suburban some people would hurl.
  
• i have a cell phone. if she was really that worried, she could've called.
  
• i'm a 4th year college student - granted i feel very un-adult and more like a kid - but still, do i really need to report in for a detour to the stinkin' video store?!?
  

ok...i'm done now.