"Recognize your potential for self-deception. Acknowledge that your motives are often misguided. We can easily find self-justifying ways of sanctioning our desires to honor, wealth and security. And so for the beginning, then for the middle and then for the end of the peace you feel, ask yourself honest, probing questions regarding motivation. Only then are you being fair to yourself, and only then can you be sure that discernment is truly happening."

Gordon T. Smith - Listening to God in Times of Choice

at my small group the other day, we were discussing how it is that sometimes people [ourselves included] are just so completely unaware of our own selfish motives and general selfishness. i think it would do tons of good if people would just stop and evaluate themselves every so often. that's my two-cents about that.

so today was like the oddest day. i didn't go to sleep until 5am last night...or rather, this morning - i was working on a project and an essay. so of course, i overslept - and it was like deep sleep i was in. apparently siobhan was practically kicking my door down this morning and i didn't even hear until she'd been hitting the door for like 10 minutes. naturally...i was completely confused, and super tired. i ditched work and took the bus to school and as i was walking onto campus at 15th and 43rd [walking up the stairs after you cross 15th], i guess my right foot was too tired to lift itself fully off the ground and i tripped and took a slo-mo dive down to my hands and knees on the concrete. i was too exhausted to be even remotely embarrassed, so i picked myself off the ground and went to class. later, in another class, i was really out of it and totally spacey/sleepy and i dropped my clicky-eraser, and when i bent down to pick it up, i slammed the leftside of my forehead against the chair in front of me. that was slightly more embarrassing because it was loud. oi...what a day.

but, on the bright side, i went to the 5th avenue theater tonight and saw The Full Monty musical [tickets were a birthday present from shiv] with amy nish and it was totally fun! a bit more risqué than i would've imagined for a musical, but the humor was great! it was pretty much the same as the movie, except the people were in buffalo, ny instead of somewhere in england, and the characters burst into song every now and then. the crazy thing was, one of the actors is a guy who used to be on the tv show the commish, which i totally used to watch all the time! strange. and tomorrow, the fun continues with the american idol concert tour! wahoo :)